August leaving

Well it's been tumultuous to say the least.  Work has been a box of mixed messages tossed in with some extra notes just to screw with our heads.  As of today we have not been restructured like 'promised' in a meeting a few weeks ago.  It's nothing that I have any influence over nor any choice other than changing of jobs.  I like the folks I work with and actually do a good job.  Change is inevitable but then it's my choice how I handle it.  Right now I am cruising along and trying to see the sunsets and sunrises with a serene air.   Yeah we all know how that works out for me.  I feed the mosquitoes and end up mumbling things about how best to slaughter - my characters yeah - mumble.

Sister-in-law completed her third chemo treatment this week.  Her sister runs the 'family' blog and hadn't posted for over two weeks since saying my SIL was home from 'the spa' (the cute way they refer to going to the hospital and not being able to visit with anyone unless they are in a hazmat suit).  I nearly called my brother to find out what was going on but then figured bad news travels fast so she was probably okay. 

And speaking of bad news my cousin's husband passed away last night.  He was a cop in VA/DC area for decades when he got leukemia.  He had a long nasty battle and last night I was online and caught up with one of my other cousins so at least I heard it was likely before seeing my aunt's rather stark email this morning reporting his death.  Not that I hadn't already realized he was that ill it just is sucky news with breakfast. 

Long holiday weekend ahead.  We used to have challenges in Piker Press http://www.pikerpress.com with the theme 10K for Labor Day.  I don't see that happening but did get in a nice 1,100 words this morning that I liked.  I have some nice twists and curves in the road ahead for my character Emma that keep spilling onto the page. 

Hope you all are well.

Rain and expecting more rain

This was probably the last good sunset shot I got. Woke at O Dark to the sounds of rain pounding on the bedroom window pane (East facing side of house usually doesn't get much of anything).  Only drawback for all this rain is it really kicks the mosquitoes into overdrive and the humidity is pretty much 90%.

Last weekend had a 'pop up party' as a friend of mine wanted to introduce us to her latest boyfriend.  I sorta remember his name and took no pictures of him.  This is the third guy I've met in her life in past year.  They seem to have an expiration date from what I've observed.  This one seems nice but has more baggage than she needs given she's pulling around a two year old in her life.  He wants to 'take her all away' because he has a possible job in Nicaragua. Nicaragua where they don't speak English but Spanish.  Right smack dab between Honduras and Costa Rica.  That could be a tad bit of a challenge.  As all my friends showed up (some I invited others just found their way over) most of them agreed he wouldn't last a month and we had fun anyways.

Back to the grind.  Hope you all are doing well.

Dog days of Summer

Yes, this is the sky for most evenings.  Drizzly rain at times and then thunder accented by lightning and sudden downfalls.  August is hot and nasty so naturally the A/C shut off Wednesday.  I came home to nearly 90 degrees inside the house.  The landlord said it would be fixed on Thursday.  It was but late Thursday.  Two days of hot, muggy weather and I am exhausted.  Add in naturally I had to cook.  My friend's mother in her 90s passed last month so a group of us had a celebration of life party for her last night.  I was the volunteer for desserts. 

Cream puffs and eclairs - which thankfully I had baked the puffs on Tuesday - but had to whip the cream when I got home yesterday in only high 80s temp.  The bitch of it was I'd promised to make banana cream pie with meringue topping.  I had bought all the ingredients before I got home on Wednesday or I would have wiggled out of it.  So at 10 pm I baked the pie since it wasn't like I could sleep in that heat. 

Now the skies are filled with the dust of Africa.  Seriously.  The dust blows across the Atlantic Ocean and onto US soil.  Plus side is the fabulous sunrises and sunsets because of all the particles in the air.  Also pushed hurricane patterns away from us.  Major minus is my house was open and the pollen count is through the roof and most of my life.  *cough cough *

Work is still "peachy" (ie hard pit in the middle surrounded by rotting fruit).  Changes in the wind from everything I am hearing and seeing.  The mid August bonuses have been delayed which is causing more and more rumors to swirl. 

That's about all I have the energy for now.  I hope you are all well.

Into the Sun

What seems like a million years ago now on this day I was married.  I was lucky enough to find myself surrounded by family and friends who adored me and I adored.  The day before there had been a sudden downpour that soaked the lawn and gave rise to fears my wedding and reception were going to be a total wash out.  It was July in Southern California.  It really doesn't rain in July.  Have to love foreshadowing. 

Nobody protested at the proper point in the wedding so I found myself married.  The family reception back at my folks was a huge sprawling full house and most of the block party.  I was wearing a hand made silk dress that my Aunt had made for me in San Fransisco.  I had the traditional old, borrowed, new and blue.  I am told I was radiant.  Naturally tears happened at the reception.  I found out my other Aunt had a secret...her mother had just passed.  I loved her mom whole heartedly.  But still the reception went on.  I left with my groom and went off into the sunset to stay at a very nice upscale La Jolla hotel for the night. 

Life shortly there after went horribly sideways.  My groom had a few secrets of his own he'd kept involving his fondness for alcohol and drugs.  Four months later I was sobbing and out the door.  I didn't stop loving him I just didn't see how I could live with him.  We didn't part angry we just parted. 

Now and then I thought of him but not in any way that made me want to look him up or even find out if he was happy.  I had made my way in life and considered the 'starter' marriage as just that.  My folks still refer to the major reception afterwards as 'that hell of a party'.  Yesterday for some odd reason his name kept pushing into my brain.  His full name.  His birthday.  Stuff I hadn't even thought I remembered.  Lunch time I googled it just on a lark because today would have been an anniversary.  I expected to find links to a Facebook page with either tons of photos of his present day family - kids and such with a dog or a page full of rock and roll band stuff (we'd been in bands on and off during time together).  Even a link to a corporate professional site was playing through my mind.

Instead I found out he passed away October 2, 2005.  Eight years ago.  There was no mistake from the information I saw, his brother and sister mentioned and his various homes.  I hadn't a clue.  I still don't quite know what I am feeling. RIP my dear.  I hope you are safe at home.

July is just heating up for Hurricanes

Spectacular skies lately which also means there have been nasty thunderstorms and intense heat waves.  All adding into the weather brew for hurricanes.  This year maybe the year I have more experiences with the tropical storm pattern than the past.

Haven't talked much about work lately for a reason.  Put it this way plenty of vampire and werewolf fodder for my muse.  I've been here at this job over 3 years now and hate to give up some of the perks but those are getting few and far between.

New laptop is still very 'new' to me.  Windows 8 which seems to confuse people is rather intuitive if you have battled a 'smart' phone for a few years.  I know I won't use over half the functions on the computer but it runs.  Haven't bought Office anything yet but used Sand's recommendation of OfficeLibre??  Still quirky but was able to get my ep in for Monday.

Hope you all have a great 4th of July weekend. 

Wild weather and its sky

This is the sunsets I get with summer.  The heavy air and the impending thunderstorms gift these.

Sigh.

Change Change Change

Mentally I am hearing the song "Chain of fools" while remembering the movie "Michael" with John Travolta dancing with all the people whose lives he was going to directly 'change'.  I always thought that song rang more about change than chains...but then I am odd.

2013 has definitely fallen off the wall and well into that chaotic feeling of constant change.  The new work management style is very familiar.  About 1983 to be exact.  The micro managing style with rules for no rational reasons being imposed constantly.  That was big in the 80s.  As were padded shoulders and garish colored suits.  I'm waiting for that 'new rule' to show up next.  Part of the stress comes from changing rules and regulations that aren't coming from our HR department but emails sents willy-nilly to us poor slobs in the cubes.  They've hired many new folks - not to helps us in the cubes but to fill offices - aka more management.  Tomorrow brings about departmental cube moves.  Not like one or two of us but I think we are uprooting 25 folks in the next two days.  Happy Happy Joy Joy...NOT.

On the plus side?? No more overtime will be allowed (well, what given with all the new hires that money has to be pulled from somewhere) unless it's written in email well in advance.  That doesn't work so well for me.  I am not staying late to cover mistakes made by the changes. 

So this little worker bee will buzz along and find a new garden soon if this continues.  Well, after the hurricanes hit right?  No need to buzz off before free days off of work.  Right??  And yes I am predicting another series of hurricanes to directly change my corner of the globe.  I was right last year.....